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nothing else I want to tell here..it's about :

in our making wonder full LOVE

I am also thinking about your past

what a the reason for she leaving you.

how could she leaving for something precious like you.

I wish to.

i know that i still young.. got lot of things to do

especially in my study.

it is still to hard for me

to get to the top of the mountain in achieve.

but as a girl. i really need of your LOVE.

and if i really want to. I want to be your wife now.

so every woke up in the morning I'll be on your chest

after sleeping in any style. funny. =)

but most love thing to do is. kissing you every morning.

-blossom-

in duration of healing myself...

i admit it that i miss you..

and more to hoping u'll treat me with your love. Your truly pure love. as u did long time ago.

did you ever remember about our flowers? there are three of them. and had their own meanings?

i wish i could remember all of it. but i can't. i rid it away. because i know u wouldn't do the same,to remember. to feel the meanings of them.

and now..the phone is ringing again. it was you.. i think i decided. to let my feeling in this way. Be silent of you. ignoring you. because it is also the best way for me, to keep not to hurts! and you... like even care...

cause u always with your Important Things To Do

-blossom-

weak.

now it's 2nd day from that day.

my head still in pain

i'm distraughting...

sometimes feel like i want to do these

but i know that i can't. So please to my Almighty. Give me a strength. heal me...

-blossom-

empty

after last night. everything such so empty in me.

my mom woke me up like an alarm. sigh. her voice is like nothing for the first time. don't feel anything.

but in confidently, in my heart every in 100% was empty.

my mind sad but empty like a empty cup but leave with some drops of water that shows of sadness.

empty like been rejected of friends.

did i afford to through this life. full of hard test. to hard than my thermodynamic test, pneumatic & hydraulic test also aerodynamic.

and you my love..did u manage to handle me? when i'm really in bad situation? which is u not even give me some peace.

it was a tale story now. when i'm hoping u'll kiss me, look at me, stare at me, touch me..like was u did before. all of that sensation vanished! and i know since when...

from that..did i able to wear my wedding dress? will i own it? a beautiful dress ever i imagine.....

and the man who i'll married to is you? will i make a correct Decision?

my phone is ringing. is u. with my empty heart. i'm ignoring u.

The most terrible poverty is loneliness, and the feeling of being unloved

wishing if i'll able to get this back.

my first heroin.

It was you my first love. everything about it was my first one. those touches. those breathes. those kisses. those hug. ignoring what will happen next. but be with you such a great time together. the love..pure, mean,…